Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Another Milestone


I am at a point in my life where I am making a fresh start.
It feels great to know that I have a choice, yes, this is the choice I am making. It may change the course of my life and my son in the next coming years but we only have one shot at life and we better make use of it.
I have decided to end my relationship with someone so special to me. He is my one great, tough and stubborn love. He was the one I waited at the airport from 12noon till 4 pm...But I did not see him. Now my waiting has ended. I have killed every hope in me that we will still be together in the future. There is no more "US". And it may be sad now, but someday we will both be smiling with the choices we made. We never fought nor quarrelled from the beginning till the end and it's something worth remembering.
It's hard and painful but I must do this to end the long term pain.
Whatever the outcome, I leave it all to HIM.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Poems for my little AJ


MY DEAR CHILD
You are the poem
I dreamed of writing
the masterpiece
I longed to paint.
You are the shining star
I reached for In my
ever hopeful quest
for life fulfilled...
You are my child.
Now with all things
I am blessed.
- Author Unknown

IF A CHILD....
If a child lives with criticism,
he learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility,
he learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule,
he learns to be shy.
If a child lives with shame,
he learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerance,
he learns to be patient.
If a child lives with encouragement,
he learns confidence.
If a child lives with praise,
he learns to appreciate.
If a child lives with fairness,
he learns justice.
If a child lives with security,
he learns to have faith.
If a child lives with approval,
he learns to like himself.
If a child lives with acceptance and
friendship,
He learns to find love in the world.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Qantas jet lands in Manila with hole in fuselage (it's great to be alive)


I was crying after I have read the news of a Qantas Airline having an emergency landing in Manila afer one of its wings blew and has a gaping hole.

I am stil terrified of flying and I know I must overcome this.

Please read below this wonderful, heart stopping incident where after a few minutes you are able to reflect about life and what really matters.

Passengers tell of 'terrifying' scare on Qantas flight

Passengers on a Qantas jumbo jet bound for Melbourne told how the plane plunged 6,000 metres and debris flew through the cabin in an "absolutely terrifying" mid-flight ordeal Friday.

The Qantas Boeing 747 plane, carrying 346 passengers and 19 crew, made an emergency landing in the Philippine capital Manila after a rupture in its fuselage.

Speaking to AFP at Manila airport and to Australian media, passengers told how the aircraft was left with a "gaping hole" in its carriage, and there had been "explosive" decompression in the cabin.

Melbourne woman June Kane said debris shot through the cabin.

"There was a terrific boom and bits of wood and debris just flew forward into first (class) and the oxygen masks dropped down," she told the Australian Broadcasting Corporation.

"We were told that one of the rear doors, a hole had blown into it, but I've since looked at the plane and there's a gigantic gaping hole in the plane.

"It was absolutely terrifying but I have to say everyone was very calm."

Phil Rescall, a 40-year-old Englishman, said the crew had been very calm and there was no panic.

"The shock came when many got off the plane and saw the hole," he told AFP.

"You see the hole and you realise we were very lucky," he added.

"Some people were crying, some people were pretty shaken when they saw the hole."

Another English passenger, Robin McGeechan, 42, said that despite the bang there was little panic.

"There was no warning, just a big bang and then there was depressurisation of the cabin and the oxygen masks dropped," he said in Manila.

"The engines of the plane never stopped running. so I did not think the damage was serious," he said. "We thought we could just set down and then take off again.

"We were told a door had popped. We only realized that there was a great big hole in the plane after we landed," McGeechan added.

June Kane said the problem seemed to centre on the baggage compartment of the plane.

"I'm looking at the plane now and on the left-hand side, just forward of the wing, there's a gaping hole from the wing to the underbody," she said.

"It's about two metres by four metres and there's baggage hanging out so you assume that there's a few bags that may have gone missing.

An unnamed passenger told the Melbourne Herald Sun's website how children burst into tears after a "quick bang" reverberated through the cabin. She said the plane plunged, then stabilised after about five minutes.

Melbourne man Brendan McClements praised the crew for landing the plane safely.

"The crew were terrific, they did a great job. Everyone gave them a round of applause as we landed," he told the Herald Sun.

Qantas said initial inspections revealed the aircraft had sustained a hole in its fuselage, and it was currently being inspected by engineers.

It said there were no reports of any injuries to passengers or crew.

A Qantas supervisor in Manila said passengers had been taken to hotels in the city. An official said the flight originated in London and had been due to arrive in Melbourne on Friday evening.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

PGH


I was in Grade 5 then, 11 years old representing my little school to that track and field event. Everyday we would get up at 5am, have to be at the track field by 7am. Warm up a little and run and more running, serious running from 7am till 12pm. Have our lunch break and get back to training area by 2pm and get back to our camp at 5pm. My weight dramatically dropped.
The only consolation I get was the thought that I was getting better at what I was doing. And my conversation from other athletes from different part of Narra,Palawan.
I was a dreamer: dreaming of becomming the fastest runner I can be.
But then, my training did not help me during the actual game. I got stupid and had to turn my head for whoever I thought called me. I was not focused at the moment.
This is what I am going through right now. I feel that I am facing this huge wall before me and that I have to climb over that wall to get to the other side.
That wall, my wall is the Philippine General Hospital that, again, said they would operate on Nappie come next year ( no fixed date). Or that he and his mother may return to Davao and have his operation there. Or take the payward.
I am appealing to whoever is reading this: please pray for Nappie to be operated soon because we don't want to wait until he is critical for him to get medical attention.
I believe that what the Lord has started, He will accomplish. I believe that one day, our little angel would be happy and normal finally.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Thank God it's Sunday



Hello, it has been a long time since I have last posted. As you know, at the moment my emotions are ranging : from sadness to joy...and a whole lot of emotions, named and unnamed.
On the much brighter side of things, Nappie will finally be operated. We are just waiting for him to get well from runny nose and a little cough. My bosses, colleagues, the kind hearted benefactors are still waiting for big results to happen. I am praying that it will be soon...
Hmp, Remedios has been diagnosed with a close to TB kind of lung disease. If she could not have proper medical care, she might have it pretty quick. We have agreed to loan her money so she can sell some stuff ( she can't find work because of her condition) to earn money for her family.
I guess so much has happened, a little drama, action and yet big results are still pending.
Oh, my baby boy turned 4 months yesterday. I just love him so. AJ wakes up at 4am and sings. yes, thats right he would make noise that has this melodic sound to it. He's adorable.
I know Sundays are mostly family bonding and church doing.. But I miss a nice relaxing day on the beach...

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Same Time Next Year

Our ever reliable Wikipedia.com will supply the nitty gritty details of this movie, thanks wiki....

Same Time, Next Year is a play by Bernard Slade which tells the story of a couple, married to others, who develop a relationship in which they meet each year at a country inn and spend a weekend together. The relationship evolves into emotional intimacy over the course of 24 years, and they become much more than clandestine lovers. Though they only meet once a year, they become important parts of one another's lives.

The show had a London production at the Prince of Wales Theatre in 1976.

In 1978 it was made into a film starring Ellen Burstyn and Alan Alda. The movie was adapted by Bernard Slade from his play, and was directed by Robert Mulligan. It was nominated for Academy Awards for Best Actress in a Leading Role (Ellen Burstyn), Best Cinematography, Best Music, Song (Marvin Hamlisch, Alan Bergman and Marilyn Bergman for "The Last Time I Felt Like This") and Best Writing, Screenplay Based on Material from Another Medium.

Exteriors for the film were shot at the Heritage House Inn, a Bed and Breakfast in Little River, California, south of Mendocino. The shell of the cottage was built on a temporary foundation overlooking the Pacific Ocean. Its interior was only skeletal as all interior photography was done on sound stages in Hollywood. After the film was completed, as a thank you to Heritage House, the studio paid for the cottage shell to be relocated to a new permanent foundation, and the interior was finished and outfitted with the studio sets. The "Same Time, Next Year" cottage became so popular as a vacation rental, that subsequently, a wall was built to divide the cottage into two private suites named "Same Time" and "Next Year". The cottage remains popular as a romantic get-a-way and requires advance reservations.

Paul McCartney contributed a title song to the film, though it was ultimately not used, and was released by McCartney as a b-side in the late 1980s.

The play has been adapted by Hong Kong filmmaker Clifton Ko for the 1994 movie I Will Wait for You (年年有今日, Nian nian you jin ri), starring Tony Leung Ka-Fai and Anita Yuen

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Accident


Poem for every woman ( not just physically but at heart) by Julia Alvarez....

Sometimes I think I became the woman
I am by accident, nothing prepared
The way, not a dramatic, wayward aunt,
Or moody mother who read Middlemarch,
Or godmother who whispered, “You can be
Whatever you want”! And by doing so
Performed the god like function of breathing
Grit into me. Even my own sisters
Were more concerned with hairdryers and boys.
Than the poems I recited ad nauseum
In our shared bedrooms when the lights were out.
“You’re making me sick!” my sisters would say
As I ranted on. Whitman’s Sony of myself
Not the best lullaby, I now admit,
Or Chauser in Middle English which caused
Many a nightmare fight. “Mami!” they’d called,
She’s doing it again” slap of slippers
In the hall, door click, and lights snapped on.
“Why can’t you be considerate for once?”
“I am,” I pleaded,” these are sounds, sweet airs….
They give delight and “kept it to your self!”
My mother said, which more than anything anymore
Anyone in my childhood and advised
Turned me to this paper solitude
Where I both keep things secret and broadcast
My heat for all the world to read. And so,
Through many drafts, I became the woman
I kept to myself as I lay awake
In the dark bedroom with lonesome
Sound
Of their soft breathing as my sisters slept.

What's the Greatest Thing I Did for Love?


(This is written by my Kiwi Friend Kerchner Rivera--nice piece mate)

What was the greatest thing I did for love!


For me, the greatest thing I did for love is ACCEPTING the fact that LIFE GOES ON. In this universe, there are no mistakes. Everything is just the way it's supposed to be. IF the relationship didn't work, look for a relationship that will.

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure.  But when you find love a new love, you view the past as a teacher.  In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or lost.

What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go.  You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you’re not a part of it.  Everything happens for the best.  If the person you love doesn't love you back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll ever know unless you give it a try.  You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love.  Love strives in hurting.  IF you don't get hurt, you don’t learn how to love.  Love doesn't hurt all the time.  Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow.  Don't fine love, let love find you.  That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall.  You just fall.  You cannot finish a book without closing it's chapters.  If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress.  It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.  The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go.  We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves.  On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse.  But don't ever make the same mistakes of riding the same one that threw you the first time.

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure.  But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risk nothing!  To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.  How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. IT can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime.  Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling.  It should inpire you and give you joy and strength.
But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.  Loving people means giving then freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be.  For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitful years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow.

Loving someone means giving the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.  Love is a painful risk to take but risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love.  Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart.  Only love can make you cry and only love knows why.  If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk, if you’re not ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall in love.  There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love coz every time we do, we get hurt, then I figured that's why it's called falling in love.

What happened, don’t give up! it is just a trial.  After all God will not give you trial that you can't tackle. Have faith and cheer up!

When you decide to love, allow it to grow. When you promise to love, refuse to let it die.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Challenges on Nappie's operation


The Happy Nappy Team is encountering difficulties in getting the exact date of his operation. Apparently, the doctor handling his case is gone and a new one took over. I heard from Nappie's mother that she won't know for sure as to when would Nappie be operated. The doctor/s think that they should prioritize other patients whose condition is more critical that our little angel.
(Sigh) I wish I can do something to expedite the process. I thought that once the funds are available, Nappie's case is close. Right now, we are facing this huge wall in front of us that we must hurdle.
But one thing that makes me have that peace of mind, God would have never allowed us to go this far unless He will fulfill His good plan on Nappie's life. Nappie is His own and He will look after him like a good shephered does to his sheep.
Help me pray for Nappie...